I had a dream that was wonderful, to realize that it’s not a reality I live in.

Karma really is awful, when you’re on the wrong side of it.

Have you heard the new Taylor Swift song called, “Karma?” I heard it for the first time yesterday. I liked it. She’s a clever songwriter.

Anyways, I thought I was more like Taylor, keeping her side of the street clean. Now, I’m seeing, I’ve been kind of cruel myself. Not with words, but by withdrawing at the second I feel pain. I’ve been such a reactive unhealed child. And I’ve recreated the abandonment wound many times for others, when that’s exactly what I don’t want to do. I’m a byproduct of abandonment trauma myself.

I feel abandoned now. How terrible. Perhaps God is teaching me to be a better person. Keep your side of the street clean. I promise it’s worth it.