Brainstew
Another great song (by Green Day). I’m launching a company. I’m scoring men younger than me.
How would I ever have thought it would be like this? I didn’t. And it’s only getting more interesting…
Heartbreak is the worst thing in the world only until you realize that the worst thing in the world is really losing yourself.
Anyways, I’m no longer lost. I’m happy and somewhat comical. I find jokes in some would-be scenarios. What I find melancholy is that I think to the beginning of several relationships and there is FOLLY in only remembering the beginning. Because in the beginning, I am myself, this happy, comical person. And later, I become tainted and tampered with to become something that is, for lack of better words, not me.
Anyways, I feel the most like myself in awhile. I’m dating a country boy now, like the type that grew up on 1,000 acres in the middle of nowhere Alabama. His name is Jarred Scott Stabler in case this needs mentioning. Lol i’m not used to Country, but he is a Scorpio and that I can entertain.
Not that I need more water in my life. But he shows up like a water sign does. Wtf is wrong with all the other 9 months of the year. Water gets it.
Anyways, I leave you with the lyrics to Brain Stew:
I’m having trouble trying to sleep
I’m counting sheep but running out
As time ticks by, still I try
No rest for crosstops in my mind
On my own, here we go
My eyes feel like they’re gonna bleed
Dried up and bulging out my skull
My mouth is dry, my face is numb
Fucked up and spun out in my room
On my own, here we go
My mind is set on overdrive
The clock is laughing in my face
A crooked spine, my senses dulled
Past the point of delirium
On my own, here we go
My eyes feel like they’re gonna bleed
Dried up and bulging out my skull
My mouth is dry, my face is numb
Fucked up and spun out in my room
On my own, here we go
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How I got here, don’t ask, but I’m so looking forward to the things to come. Don’t try to make sense of the things that come. Enjoy them and pass it on, like a bong. Ain’t that just life?
